“What if Your Healing Comes Through Tears?”

I’d love to recap last week’s Rare Disease events as part of Rare Disease Legislative Advocacy and Rare Disease Day, but there’s a lot. I’ve got a lot of writing, handwriting and typing, to do as well as connections to make by email and phone with all the wonderful people I met last week. It was inspiring, humbling, exhausting, and the most meaningful week of my life (outside of my wedding to Superman, of course).

What’s the point and connection with the post title, video and song? 

I’ve been listening to this song for a long time now. And, its sentiment has been in my head for about a year and a half now. After my last major breakout, I wasn’t sure this disease would ever go away and worried that my state after recovering from it was going to be the best I could expect, which wasn’t great. I remember hearing stories throughout my life of people, good people and Christians, who prayed for healing. It rarely happened with the really sick.

I remember one particular woman who refused treatment because she believed she would be healed by God and prayer. I absolutely believe that’s possible. God can do anything. That woman died just a few years after diagnosis with something that is quite common and has a high survival rate. My issue with praying for healing like this is:

  1. What we as humans, especially as Christians, define as “healing” is not the same as God’s healing. Through the process of deterioration, as everything in this world does, perhaps God using the lack of physical healing to provide a spiritual healing. Yes, many Christians know this. However, we cannot pretend that we aren’t asking for physical healing too. But, is physical healing what God has planned for us? We cannot pretend to know what His purpose is. So, as humans, we pray for a physical healing that we don’t know is in store for us. And, as humans, when we pray for physical healing, aren’t we setting ourselves up for disappointment and doubt? We know that God is faithful to us and doesn’t disappoint, but as humans we place our faith in other things and people besides just God. For example, we place faith and hope in our own timeframe and our own requests and not always in His time and plan for us.
  2. As part of our spiritual healing and regardless of our physical health state, shouldn’t we be praying for spiritual healing alone? God knows we don’t like or want physical pain and suffering and that we want is physical healing. It’s not what we want but what we need that we should be praying for, like, “Whatever Your plan is for me, whatever it is I’m supposed to be learning and doing because of this [tragedy, illness, hardship], please reveal it to me and make me a steward of Your mission through this [tragedy, illness, hardship].” In other words, “Please help me to know what it is I’m supposed to learn from this and help me use it for good and for Your good.”

My real fear is that when non-christians see and hear us praying for our physical healing, then seeing us decline or die, they don’t know or understand. I fear the non-believer’s response would be, “See, there’s no God. Why would God do this to you and let you suffer?” Or, “Where’s your God now?” For us to try to explain at this point would be futile. They’re already witnessing what they see as true. But, if they see and hear us praying for a purpose from our [tragedy, illness, hardship], that won’t require explanation. And, it won’t matter if we never physically heal and/or die from our [tragedy, illness, hardship]. They’ll see that we’ve tried to do something for God and something great, no in spite of, but because of our [tragedy, illness, hardship]. That earns great respect, even and especially from non-Christians. Wouldn’t this be a better testament of faith?

I share this because during Rare Disease Week, I met so many people fighting to make a difference in so many different ways in the lives of others–more so than their own. These people have learned from their experiences and instead of just moving along in routine, daily life, they’re forever changed and motivated to help others. They’ve turned devastation into inspiration!

Therefore, this song and its message is perfect for anyone facing [tragedy, illness, hardship].

Let it be your “theme song”.

Blessings

Music video by Laura Story performing Blessings. (C) 2011 Laura Story
Lyrics posted below video

We pray for blessings, we pray for peace.
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep.
We pray for healing, prosperity.
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering.

All the while, You hear each spoken need.
Your love is too way too much to give us lesser things.

Cause what if your blessings come through raindrops?
What if your healing comes through tears?
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You’re near?

What if trials of this night, are Your mercies in disguise?

We pray for wisdom, Your voice to hear.
We cry in anger when we cannot feel You near.
We doubt Your goodness, we doubt Your love.
As if every promise from Your word is not enough.

All, the while, You hear each desperate plea.
And long that we’d have faith to believe.

Cause what if your blessings come through raindrops?
What if your healing comes through tears?
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You’re near?

What if trials of this night, are Your mercies in disguise?

When friends betray us, when darkness seems to win;
We know that pain reminds this heart, that this is not, this is not our home.
It’s not our home.

Cause what if your blessings come through raindrops?
What if your healing comes through tears?
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You’re near?

What if my greatest disappointments, or the aching of this life;
Is a revealing of greater thirst that a world can’t satisfy?

And what if trials of this life, the rain, the storms, the hardest nights;
Are Your mercies in disguise?

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